But, I’m in pain. This entire week has been very bad for me. Yesterday, it hurt to walk. That is no exaggeration. My mom saw me last night and even commented on how bad I was walking. I was in bed by 8PM last night, after coming home from moms, taking a hot bath (which did help some), I hit the sack.
Yesterday, I had such a hard time concentrating. I couldn’t focus on anything but how bad it hurt just to sit here in my chair at work. I was so quiet here at work, a couple people here asked if I was okay. What do you say to people? So, I just say “Yes, I’m okay, I’m just tired.” And I smile. It’s fake but people seem to be reassured with a smile. I felt like I was in a fog yesterday. My head hurt, my hips hurt, I couldn’t concentrate, I just wanted to go home and lay in my nice cozy bed.
Warm/Hot wet heat helps. Or so I’ve heard. I filled the tub almost immediately after getting home from moms and sunk in, almost crying (no lie) when my muscles responded. My legs felt like cement blocks but I could feel the relief within minutes. I lay in the tub (sorry for the visual LOL) for awhile, just soaking up the heat and feeling my legs/hips relax. After that, I took two ibuprofen, washed my face and went to bed.
This morning, it’s better. The hot bath and sleep truly helped but it’s still there. My hips feel achy this morning and I’m still very tired, regardless of my 9 hours of sleep.
I’m frustrated. I don’t know what to do and honestly, I don’t know that much of anything can be done. I’ve been seeing a massage therapist but I’m usually worse off the next several days until the effects kick in, it almost doesn’t seem worth it. Pain medicine (what I will take, which isn’t much) is hit or miss, sometimes it helps, other times it doesn’t. I have seen (and felt) that a consistent sleep schedule helps most of the time; hot bathes do help as well if the pain is really bad. Those are the 2 things that work for sure.
So, I’m thinking of skipping Grey’s tonight, going to bed early again and seeing if that takes the pain away completely. I know for sure I can’t stay up for Private Practice. I can always catch up on those shows tomorrow.
I need some help. I’m not sure where to start. :( I hate the thought of going to the doctor. They will probably just shove pain medicine at me and I won’t take it. I refuse to take more then I need to. I have this huge fear of becoming addicted to pain medicine. Most of the time, I just try to work through it or wait until I’m almost in tears to take something. I only take my happy medicine because I don’t want to cry or have homicidal thoughts.
I’ve been doing research. I’m looking up homeopathic remedies and it sounds like a bunch of hooky-voodoo crap. Acupuncture? Really? Only if it’s being done by Pete Wilder. Most things I read recommend plenty of sleep, well balanced diet (well, I should do that….), avoidance of stress (yeah, ooooooookay), anti-depressants (on one, thanks), exercise (well, when I have problems MOVING, how can I exercise?)…..Sarah recommended stretching which I have been doing when I remember, I lay in bed in the mornings before I get up and in the evenings before I fall asleep and stretch my legs and feet, that is where most of my pain is…..sometimes it helps, other times it doesn’t.
*sigh*
I can't focus or concentrate. My head hurts. My hips hurt. I'm in a fog. I'm so tired.
MAKE.IT.STOP.
I need help.
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