Cravings

Positives for yesterday: I haven't starved to death yet.

I'm 4 days into my diet now and honestly, even though it's only been 4 days, I'm WAY proud of myself for showing discipline. My mom had bought some Easter candy and has it laying around and I have not eaten ONE piece of it. It's hard, so very hard, when I pass up the Reese's cups and they almost say my name...but I haven't given in yet. This isn't so much about dieting, I've realized, as much as it is about changing my eating habits. Which frankly, sucks. :) I'm craving all the things that I can't really have. Fries, chocolate, jelly beans, a real Coke, a double cheeseburger from McD's. But, if I fail now, I won't succeed in the end. 10-15 pounds is not that much to lose and I can DO this. That's what I keep telling myself as I eat carrots and salad with no cheese (and 2 tablespoons of dressing, seriously?, 2 tablespoons....). I CAN DO THIS!

I packed my lunch again this morning. I'm hoping this weekend that I can take some time to plan some meals like Sarah does and I can pick up more options then what I currently have. Weight Watchers actually seems like it has a LOT of foods that you can have, it's just all in how it's prepared and what it's with. So, I need to pick up more food and start cooking and meal planning. Maybe, I can even get my mom eating better.

Moving along to non-diet news: I have a headache this morning. I woke up late and with a headache. I'm not sure if it's because the weather changed or what but all I really want to do is crawl back into bed and hope it goes away. I'm all congested this morning too. You just have to love the spring time. I woke up again sometime during the early hours. I think it was around 4 and then it was awhile before I was able to get back to sleep, that's probably why I woke up so late. By 9PM, I'm exhausted and usually getting into bed. I'm not sure if I'm going to bed too early and that's why I'm waking up or what's going on. I just know that it needs to STOP. I'M TIRED! I want a full nights sleep! Maybe that's why I have a headache. I see a sleeping pill in my future, like tonight. I wanted to call off work today, that's how bad my head hurts but since, I'm not allowed to do that, here I am.

Well, I'm off to make coffee and eat my breakfast. And take some Excedrin.