Random Complaining

I'm going to complain. I know, you're shocked.

This has probably been one of the worst weeks for me, in awhile. I was written up at work (yup, you read that correctly), I made ANOTHER huge mistake that could have cost me my job, my car needs work, I'm probably not going to get to go on vacation, I'm really overwhelmed by school....

I've cried more in the past week and half then I have in months.

• The write up = sobbing uncontrollably 
• Car heater tanking = tears on the way to work 
• Calling around for tire prices = tearing up during quotes 
• Reading and attempting homework = crying when I'm done because I feel really stupid and inadequate  
• Telling my best friend that I probably won't be able to come this year = sobbing while taking my car to the car shop

To some, these may be stupid things to cry over.  But, we all know how emotional I am.  I was just complaining about not having any money, I got to Metamora and make good money, only to dump $600 in my car yesterday.  And I had to put $800 of my "Metamora moolah" into the bank because I pulled from my Christmas savings.  So, there goes the money I made.  *waves bye bye to it*  Not to mention, some of that money went right back into Scentsy for another event in November.  I shouldn't complain.  I truly shouldn't.  I'm lucky to have had the money to fix my car.  I'm lucky to have the extra cash to put into my side business in hopes it brings me more money in the future.  I"m lucky I could take some of that money and catch up on a few bills.

I just want to do something selfish with my money.  I want to go on vacation.  I want to buy some clothes (since I'm gaining weight and everything is so tight on me now).  I want to spend some money on ME instead of being responsible or spending it on others.  And by me, I mean, not spending a few dollars here and there on a bottle of wine or some new socks. Blah, Blah, Blah.  We all feel this way. 

I have so much to be thankful for and to look forward to.  I just feel really overwhelmed right now and extremely stressed.  I'm SUPER disappointed in myself and some things that have happened recently.  I'll get over it.  I just ..... I don't know.  I need a break.