Really?

I have some exciting news. I am moving out of the Safety department and moving back into Bath & Kitchen. I think this is a positive move for me, there is more room for growth in the B&K department and it's going to be a job that is more of a challenge for me. Shannon Menning (one of the guys from B&K) is leaving. He's going to go back to school. Our general manager sent out an email on Friday and offered his job to anyone who might be interested.

So, I went and spoke with Lynn about it. It became official yesterday that I was the one selected for the job.

Pam (my current boss) did not take the news well, from what I hear. She also didn't act like (to me anyway) that she was very happy. It's been a very emotional past two days for me.

I've spoken with Lynn several times over the past few days and it's been brought to my attention that some people in my department as well as hers have been saying some "nasty" things about me.

Why is this happening? I guess Christy (aka the Moaner) said some terrible things about me to DeAnna (who then repeated them to Lynn) and Amanda has been saying some nasty things as well. I was shocked. I barely associate with this girls, women, whatever so what gives them the right to talk trash about me?

Also, DeAnna was talked to because she evidently asked on Monday (before the official announcement) if I was going to be selected and she said something along the lines of "Please don't tell me you are hiring Susan for Shannon's job." NICE.

I haven't always been the best person. I really haven't. When I worked over there, I was way young and naive. I was easily sucked into the drama created by some of the women over there and I wasn't always the nicest or best person I could be. Well, a lot has changed in 4 years.

Being in Safety has changed my perspective on things. It's quiet up there (I fondly call it the morgue) and I've tried to stay out of the drama as much as I can. Yes, I listen to rumors and being human, I sometimes make mistakes but I've tried very hard not to be the person I was when I was in B&K.

I still make mistakes and I'm not the best worker in Safety (I hate my job there) but I've been nothing but nice to these girls and tried really hard to fit in. All of this drama has just reconfirmed my move to B&K and made me realize, Safety is not the place for me to be.

I'd really like to say something to these girls but I'm just going to let it ride. I'm going to go in, do my job and plow through, counting my days until it's time for me to move. I'll rise above the pettiness and see that there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

My feelings are hurt, that's for sure and I spent a lot of time after work last night, doing a lot of soul searching. I want to move forward. I want to better myself. I want to work at a job that I look forward to going to. I know B&K will be more stressful and more challenging but I think it's a better move, for me. Lynn has been nothing but supportive and I know her well enough to know that she wouldn't put me in a job that I wasn't capable of doing. I have allies in B&K, in Kristy Beddow, who is so excited I'm moving over there. Lynn is also supportive and after her meeting with DeAnna yesterday, DeAnna sounds supportive of my move. (Begrudgingly I imagine.)

You know what irritates me the most? DeAnna, Amanda and Christy are all "professed" Christians. They talk about God and being saved and all this stuff but let me tell you, they are the first to talk about you behind your back and toss you in front of the bus like a rag doll.

Oh well, it's time to be a grown up and hold my head up, smile and do the best job I can do. This is a positive move for me and I should be able to look forward to it and be excited I'm making a move to better myself.

I just hope that I have the strength and the courage it takes to do all these things.