Ooooowwwwwwww.......

I hurt. All over. I noticed earlier this week that my Fibro was starting to flare up. I figured it was just from all the activity of moving. I was waiting, almost with bated breath, for my massage appointment on Thursday.

I met Mary at Nick Wilson’s homecoming party and the two of us hit it off instantly. She has Lupus so she related to my Fibromyalgia and told me about her massage practice. I went once and she made me feel so much better. Well, that was in June. It’s September now.

Let’s just say, when I walked out of the salon that Mary practices in, I hurt more then when I walked in. She kindly yelled at me about waiting too long (which I did) and how I let it get out of hand (which I did.) She also told me to expect to be in more pain at least for a day before everything kind of smoothed itself out. She said I had formed some “knots” in areas (like my hips and legs) and how tense and tender I was in my neck and shoulders.

When I got home last night, I helped load up the donations in Tina’s car and then I hobbled my way back into the house. I was gimping around the kitchen like I’m 90 years old. I’m not that much better this morning.

Mary and I talked a lot about this past year and how my fibro has been much worse. My immune system has seriously been lacking this year, I’ve been sick more this year then I have in the past couple. I really thought once I got some of my weight off, my fibro would be better but it seems to have gotten worse, maybe it’s because I’m more active then I was. It hurts, right now, just to sit in this chair. It’s going to be a long day.

I don’t take any medicine for my fibro. I will occasionally take a ibuprofen or Darvocet. (That's when you know I REALLY hurt!) I’ve been on Lyrica and I hated it. It made me feel groggy and hung over all the time and one of the biggest side effects is weight gain. Um, no thank you. I might talk to my doctor about switching to Cymbalta, an anti-depressant which has been proven to help some fibro patients. Mary suggested that I try acupuncture, she said it helps with her Lupus and she's heard positive feedback from a few of her patients with fibro. I'd do anything at this point to stop hurting. I feel like it is just going to get worse before it gets better since there is a lot more moving coming up.

I've noticed that I'm super emotional this week as well and all I can think is it is because I'm in pain. I'm weepy and tired and I seriously hurt all over.

I truly try not to complain but I've noticed more and more, I'm telling people how I feel and how much I hurt. It's very unlike me (just ask Sarah or Cindy or Tina) but I can't help it anymore. It's worse this year then I can remember it ever being.

I'm hoping to get some rest and relaxation this weekend while I'm away at Ashley's wedding. We'll see. I just really hope I'm not in this much pain again tomorrow.