Day One (kind of)

Okay, so I've started in therapy. I think it will help me deal with everything that I've been going through. She suggested that I start a journal and list ONE positive thing each day. Mary Anne (that is my therapist's name) said that by doing this, she thinks it will help me realize there are more positive things going on then I realize, even though I feel engulfed with the negative right now.

So, instead of going out and buying a journal (that I'll probably write in for awhile and then ditch like the rest of the journals sitting in my closet), I thought I'd start a "positive" journal here, on the internet. This way, if I ditch this "journal", it won't take up space in my over crowded closet. :)

This is also day one of my anti-depressant. I'm not thrilled about being back on medicine but my doctor & my therapist both think that it will help even out my emotions (so I'm not either hysterically crying or irriationally angry) and it will also help me find enjoyment in things again. Basically, it will help even me out. It won't take away all of my problems but it will help me be level and not see everything as a crisis.

I'm debating on whether or not to ask some friends to join this journey with me. I thought about opening this blog up to a few people if they wanted to post positive things as well (maybe we could lift ALL our spirits) but I'm not sure. I might be disappointed if people don't participate. (Because I'm a dork like that.)

So, anyway, today is the first day of my "positive" journal. I'm going to attempt to stay at this, even when/if I do start to feel better. I think this will be a good thing.

Positive for today so far: The sun is shining and it's supposed to be 71 degrees today. I'm wearing a short sleeve t-shirt! In March!